Tuesday, 18 October 2011
'God bless you'
i have lived most of my adult life as an agnostic theist
and it is alright with me
i don't need to attend church, or fast for religious festivals, or study scriptures or sacrifice my first born or anything like that
i'm quite content to live my life and believe that if i strive to be the best person that i can possibly be then these efforts will not go unnoticed by the universe and whatever higher powers there may or may not be
i certainly have my own personal values that gravitate around the principle of karma, and i do wonder if there isn't really something in afew of these religions that are knocking around, i'll certainly take into consideration anything anyone believes and my even borrow from these beliefs if it suits me, i also went to a Baptist church sunday school when i was younger, and i definitely think it gave me a good grounding in life.
all this is getting away from the point, but may be useful background.
my work has recently involved more and more unreasonable stress, unreasonable customers, a pathetically faltering computer that doesn't make getting anything done any easier, a boss that expects too much and expects it now and a whole host of myriad factors that have made these last few weeks rather depressing. but i'll live with it, i'll keep going in the hope that things will improve, and most importantly, i need to pay bills.
today was no different at all, worse even, throw in a fax machine that is ever-jamming and in my own personal life, a credit card company that is almost certainly retarded, and it was hardly a thrilling time working 9 til 5.
except one customer kinda made things better towards the end of the day.
i'd helped her out, shown her around a few bits and pieces and told her any information she wanted to know and that i though may of been helpful to her. she said that she would let her nephew, her daughter and her grandsons know. i made sure she had our contact details and also handed over a few 10% off leaflets.
i was only doing my job, and i take pride in actually being able to help people when they need it.
she seemed overjoyed at the discount flyers, and thanked me, and said
'God bless you'
now, let me clarify, this wasn't a habitual kind of 'Bless you' that follows a sneeze or anything, i could tell that she was grateful for any effort that i had made for her, and the way that she spoke made it obvious that she had a real belief in God
and it felt good, it felt like being touched by something
i could almost feel a glowing inside of me, as if through some brief verbal communication i had truly been blessed by a deity that i can't even honestly say that i have solid convictions in
this isn't my turning point, this isn't my announcement that i have seen the light.
but it was a beautiful moment that i wanted to share.
credit where it is due:
accompanying artwork, Angel by ~UnKnOwns