Over 6 months have passed.
More than half a year.
In real life, that is a long time.
In blogging life, that is a phenomenally long time. So much so that I thought I would never come back. When it's been that long is there really any point? Any momentum, any sort of pace or direction or forward motion has planted itself solidly in the ground.
Regardless, I've always written purely because I love writing, when I get the bug for it it's like an itch that I just have to scratch. I need to find more time to scratch my itch.
Back when I was on more regular blogging duty, a couple of weeks felt like a long time and I would feel the need to apologise for such rubbishness. and the I vowed to stop apologising for such rubbishness because it was turning into a whole load of apologising for such rubbishness, but right now is an exception.
Cos I've been rubbish.
At times, life has been rubbish. Personal circumstances have been spectacularly rubbish at the worst of times, and sometimes not even that great at the best of times. Life was changing, my job changed, since January I've found myself stuck behind a desk, one place I never thought I'd actually end up, all of these things, the time constraints, the constraints of having too much time to think while you mindlessly process data-entry yet never find time to act upon your 'real' thoughts, they have affected me.
When people say that they 'weren't in a very good place', I think I've been there now, it's true, it's not very good, don't bother going there, don't even pass through, there is nothing to see there.
It hasn't been completely fruitless, reviews and articles and mixtapes have cropped up in a few places, but for a long time it's been hard to feel like myself... I think I may be finding my way back there slowly.
in just this week alone I've managed to knock out a couple of reviews, as well as getting slightly more creative/constructive things done around the house/garden, and I thought a new entry for the blog should be next in line.
And there it is I guess, nothing too special. But it is just me, writing again. and it feels better than it has for a long time.